I don't want to say goodnight

I've changed your diaper so that it's doubled stuffed for overnight wear.  You have your pjs on (polka dot with a cupcake on the butt). You've been fed and are passed out on my lap.  But yet I just sit here.  I don't want to go lay you in your bassinet as that is an indicator of bed time and next thing I know, it'll be tomorrow.  And I have to leave you for 10.5 hours... I cried earlier today and am trying to be strong now, but I truly will be a mess tomorrow. 

I don't want to say goodnight.  I'm not ready to accept that I'll be away from you for so long.

:(