This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do...
Sitting here looking at the monitor with you laying in your crib, screaming.
Now before you call me a horrible mother (which you may still after reading this), let me explain. You are not a sleeper. Well, youre a sleep-on-mommy-and-only-mommy sleeper. You have learned over time the only way to fall a sleep is on me.
Naps? Have to fall asleep on me.
Bedtime? Have to fall asleep on me.
Wake up at 11:30 pm? And 1:00 am? And 3:00 am? And 5:00 am? Have to fall back asleep on me...
You have slept through the night on several occasions. There was a whole month when you were around 3 months old that you slept all night every night. But ever since then it's been an oddity. On a normal night, you wake up twice. On a good night? You wake up once or sleep all night (happens maybe once very few weeks). Bad night? 4 or 5 times up. Or only 2 - 3 but you stay up for an hour one of those times. Typically you fall asleep around 8:30 pm and wake up between 7 - 8 am.
This also makes naps short and difficult. There was a time when I could only lay you down for a nap for 10 minutes or so before you'd wake up. Currently - your morning nap will last between an hour and an hour and a half. Usually you wake up part of the way through and require me to get you back to sleep. Afternoon naps average 30-45 minutes.
Needless to say - you should be sleeping more. And you should be sleeping through the night and putting yourself to sleep.
I know this is my fault. When you were younger, you'd fall asleep while nursing. And I thought you were still genuinely eating, so I'd let you stay latched on. Hence the days of 6+ hours of nursing and no pacifiers. Eventually I learned to recognize when you were no longer eating and just comfort sucking, and would put a paci in your mouth.
